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Do you struggle with recurring negative emotions?

Yesterday I had a very insightful session with someone whom I will randomly call Johan for the sake of his privacy. I am sharing some of it here with his permission. It can help those of you who can’t seem to get rid of their negative emotions.

So Johan was struggling with jealousy issues, in his current relationship as well as in past ones. Even when he knew perfectly well he had no reason whatsoever to be jealous, he just couldn’t help it.

I did some healing on him via Skype. At first the jealousy remained. Then it was replaced with a feeling of deep love and gratitude. Then it came back. I could feel it very clearly in my chest, burning and nagging tenaciously (I’m an empath, I can feel other people’s emotions).

Then suddenly I saw him as a kid in my mind’s eye, and I saw his mother cover his eyes with her hand. Or, more exactly, I saw him as a kid, saw a hand of the size of an adult hand cover his eyes and just knew it was his mother.
- Is it possible that your jealousy has something to do with your mother in your childhood? I asked him.

He explained that it probably had to do with past self-esteem issues, his relationship with his first girlfriend and some physical insecurities. This sounded logical to me, but more like an intellectual construct that our rational mind would come up with to explain emotional issues that we don’t understand. Because of the intuitive input I had received, I kept asking questions about his mother.

His father cheated on his mother when he was a kid, and even had a child with the other woman. His mother was terribly hurt, but she hid the father’s affair as well as her feelings about it from her son, until a few years ago (he’s an adult now).

- Do you think it is possible that your mother felt jealous back then? I asked.
- Yes, I am sure she was very jealous. But she hid what she was feeling from me and showed herself as strong.

The thing is, Johan is an (unskilled) empath and highly psychic. Unskilled means that he hasn’t learned to consciously switch his empathic abilities off. Especially as a child he was very sensitive. Because of all this, it was impossible for his mother to hide such strong feelings from him. At the conscious level maybe, but subconsciously, he must have felt it.

- Maybe your jealousy is not your jealousy at all, I said to him. Maybe it is your mom’s jealousy, that you took into your energy body from her.
- It makes sense, he said. I wanted to protect her at some level. So I took it on me. But I couldn’t process it.
- Indeed. If she “covered your eyes” by hiding everything, declaring there were no such feelings, you could not process them. You just stored them inside you. Like radioactive waste. We store what we cannot immediately process, for it to be released later.

This energetic transfer and storage created a pool of pain and jealousy inside Johan’s emotional body. Later when he became an adult, this jealousy flared up when triggered by the tiniest things, and attracted corresponding situations and relationships into his life. This wasn’t truly him, though. It came from his mother.

I suspect this often happens when a sensitive child consciously or subconsciously feels a parent’s painful emotions and wants to help them, thereby taking on their negative energy. This negative energy can be jealousy like in this case, but also anger, guilt, shame, fear, or any other feeling.

Maybe it also happens simply by energetic contamination, without desire to help. Of course it also happens between adults, especially unskilled empaths and highly sensitive persons. I think children are even more prone to it, though. And more vulnerable, since they don’t have the emotional maturity and skills to process adult issues effectively.

I asked Johan to simply release the jealousy whenever it comes up, keeping in mind it’s not from him. A bit like money laundering, just with dirty emotions. He laughed, looked very relieved, and happily told me the jealousy was fading away.

How many of your negative emotions are actually someone else’s feelings, that you stored in your energy body at some point, unable to process them properly? If you struggle with seemingly irrational, negative emotional patterns, this might be because of such a transfer and storage of someone else’s energy. It might also have a soul-level cause, that I can detect and eliminate in a reading.

If you want to free yourself from negative emotions, you can book a reading with me here and I will help you to handle, heal and release those feelings. :-)

One week later: Today Johan told me he isn’t feeling jealous anymore. Situations in which he would normally feel jealous don’t have this effect on him anymore. He could even look at a picture of his girlfriend and her ex without any jealousy being triggered. He wrote to me “It feels weird not to be jealous anymore. I was so used to it!” and he added “Maybe I will be jealous in some situations in the future, maybe not. I don’t mind. I will deal with it.”. Yay.

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