Is Fear Preventing You From Getting to the Next Level?
I’m so terrified I’m paralyzed.
I’ve often heard people say that fear can prevent us from making significant changes in our lives. Until now, I could not really relate to that. I was working really hard on transforming my life, and if I occasionally felt fear, I did it anyway.
Most of the difficulties I had to deal with felt external to me, and had solutions. Even when the solution was a spiritual healing session to clear internal, soul-level blocks that were holding me back, it still felt like I was dealing with “something else”. Because whatever it was, it was blocking me, and once it was cleared, whoooo, I would go ahead and take the next step on my path.
Now my situation is different. It feels like there is nothing blocking me anymore. Sure I still have energetic “stuff” that’s not who I really am, but it doesn’t feel like what’s left is seriously holding me back. I feel perfectly free to walk my path and get to the next level.
And now I feel it! The fear. Oh my God. I’m terrified.
When the Fear is Paralyzing
I know exactly what to do to get to the next level. I have been there several times so I know what it feels like. There is nothing preventing me from doing it, except for my own choices. But I’m scared. So I keep going back and forth between my old state and my new state.
The old state doesn’t feel good to me anymore. It feels awful and I can’t stand to stay there for a long time anymore. But the new state is so scary that I can’t stand to stay there for a long time either. So I keep yo-yo-ing between the two.
I keep clinging to old habits that don’t serve me anymore, that don’t even feel good to me anymore, just so I won’t get to the next level. I have even started new, unhealthy habits, that I didn’t have before, that don’t even resonate with me, just for the sake of sabotaging myself.
I numb myself out to not feel the anxiety. And, I keep distracting myself in all kinds of ways, clearly just to avoid facing my path.
I’ve never been in such a place before. My whole life I struggled with a lot of things, but never before have I been so free to do what I want and so scared of doing it.
Sometimes we NEED to level up!
For over half a year now I’ve been oscillating this way. I feel totally misaligned with my purpose, I’m off-track, it feels BAD, and as a consequence my health is suffering a lot.
Sometimes, we are ready to level up. If we don’t, if we cling to our old state of being, we end up misaligned with ourselves, even if we know our purpose and all that stuff.
That’s what happens to my clients sometimes. After a healing session, they change. They need to allow their lives to shift as well. They need to make new choices. But sometimes they won’t, they cling to old choices and habits, and then they suffer until they adjust. That’s what’s happening to me now, I guess. Geez, I feel sorry for my clients!
I’ll use this opportunity to find out how to get to the next level in spite of the fear. I have no solution yet, but I can definitely confirm that yes indeed, sometimes fear can prevent us from making a significant change in our life!
Ready to die?
When I quit smoking in 2004, I didn’t realize it would be a life-altering choice. I thought of it as simply getting rid of a bad habit, becoming more independent and healthier, and polishing my self-esteem a bit. What really happened though is that when I quit smoking, I became a new, different person. It was amazing. The old me disappeared, I barely remember her. And quitting smoking was just a small change compared to what I’m up to now.
In a way, it’s like dying.
No wonder I’m scared!
I’d become a new person, with a different emotional, mental, probably even physical body. My relationships will change, my work will change, my whole life will change. I’ll deal with things differently. The one I am now will cease to exist, in a way. It’s like jumping off a cliff without knowing what’s at the bottom of it and whether I can fly or not.
I know who I am now, I don’t know who I will be after.
I know it’s totally going to be worth it! But still, it’s scary, isn’t it?
What do you think?
- If you can relate and feel that fear is preventing you from leveling up too, please feel free to leave a comment and share.
- If you were in a similar situation but you managed to make the change in spite of the fear, please leave a comment and share how you managed to do that!
- If you would like, you are also welcome to leave a comment and write a few soothing words of encouragement to me. I could use them! :)